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[23 Jul 2008|10:22pm] |
So life has been great!
I've been working a lot. Hopefully it pays off!
Lenny and I have been doing really well, it was rough because we both have been working our asses off.
Hopefully next week I will be getting a new phone i'm so excited the Palm Centro. Summers been really good! the weather has been shitty but it should be getting better soon I hope. Well I really don't have a lot to talk about oh well should be having some new photoshoots soon! which should be amazing going to be doing some pinup photography which should be interesting! well I will def tell you how that goes. Thats all I have for now! talk to you soon.
<3 ash
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| Hey guys long time since my last post! |
[02 Jul 2008|03:11pm] |
Well here I am again! haha a brand new me let me tell you!
Life has been A lot different for me! Mike and I separated about year ago!
I've been seeing this guy Lenny for 8 months now, we live together we have a cute apartment in Saratoga, and a cute little dog named dudley!
I've been attending college for photography in Utica, I'll be transferring soon to a school in albany to be closer to home and more activities! My photography career has really taken off which is really exciting I have been really busy and have been doing a lot of shoots!
Lenny and I are very much in love and we are perfect for each other! I feel like he could actually be my soul-mate!
<3 ash
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[30 Apr 2007|08:50am] |
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mike came home, he called me up like last friday this is how the conversation went:
Call was restricted
Me: Hello?
Mike: Ash
Me: Hello?
Me: Michael?
Mike: Ash I love you and miss you so much you have no idea
Me: No you don't!
Mike: I'm sorry I havent called you in a week. I've been thinking about what I want in life.
Me: Yeah right, Mike answer me one question? Have you been using?
Mike: No, I told you I've been thinking.
Me: Why havent you called me?
Mike: I don't know.
Mike: I've made my mind up ash I want to spend the rest of my life with you and I'm willing to do anything it takes to be with you.
Me: Well first off you need to change I cant be with a person that uses, and is going to always put me second and just use me to get a fix. I'm not going to put myself through this shit. You know I've been through soo much this year and I dont need anything else to bring me down.
Mike: I know and I am so sorry ash.
Mike: Do you want to be with me I need to know?
Me: I dont know, I cant live life like you do michael.
Mike: Then I'm not going to even try and get you back then, you dont want to be with me.
Me: Thats not true I love you with all my heart I been so worried about you. Even ask your mom, I spoke with her everyday maybe 2 times a day and I texted her to see if she had heard from you. I can't eat and i cant sleep. I was scared you might of killed yourself or gotten into trouble.
Mike: Ash you dont care you already have a myspace.
Me: why does that matter so i have a myspace I'm not intrested in anyone but you mike. and if you dont believe that then dont.
Mike: I'm going back home tonight to talk to my parents. Will you come over to talk. I need you.
Me: I Dont know.
And thats basically the whole conversation but yeah everything was so messed up.. I really love him but the way he's treated me, I guess that was my fault. We are still dating hes agreed to get help and go to counseling 3 days a week and outpaient drug rehab. I hope this works because this is the last chance and I pray to god it works or I don't know how I will handle being away from him.
<3
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[20 Apr 2007|10:04am] |
Life has been rocky but its getting better, mikes missing hes running from his problems which is stupid he needs help.
Yesterday was amazing, I hung out with cait and jack and made jack eat my wallpaper (yummy). then cait and i went out side and we beat the crap out of jack with a wiffle ball bat is was fun, then we rolled his spare tire down my driveway and made it go into a ditch.
I LOVE CAIT!!!
<33 ash
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I'm so freakin tired. I really didnt want to wake up this morning at all.
I haven't seen michael since the weekend, I miss him. He's been working at this inventory place at night and it sucks. He's always tired, he hates the job too. I wish he just got money handed to him each week, but that will never happen unless he wins the lottery.
Anyways, I'm working on my portfolio, how exciting. well here I am sitting in class about to open up flash thinking I should be in bed right now. well I should get to work see ya.
<3 ash
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Being sad all the time sucks.
I hate feeling this way, it needs to stop.
Something needs to change.
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[05 Feb 2007|09:52am] |
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This weekend was short.
I didn't do anything really, cleaned my room, read, watched some movies, went shopping, didnt hang out with anyone.
Mike was all pissed at me for calling him. I didn't even get to see him. I feel like were falling slowly apart.
I love him so much but I don't see him showing his love for me, he tells me but he doesnt show it. I miss the summer.
<3 ash
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I LOVE HIM!
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I love casey jones, they are so good!!!! Listen to them now. I love mike more then life its self! I wish I graduated already so I can get outta here and forget about High school because it completely sucks!
<3 ash
I LOVE YOU MICHAEL!!!!
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[31 Jan 2007|08:23am] |
Okay another stupid entry.
For some reason I feel that everything is going to be perfect for now on.
I feel that maybe mike and I relationship will be better then it was because I was a mess and I am trying so hard to come out of it.
My grandmother went through shit in my room, she took some shit I wrote about her, so basically if I go to court with her I have nothing against her except for mike and his parents.
Votechs been okay I have competions coming up in feb. so we'll see what happens. I love laura and dan they make me laugh that I almost pee my pants!
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[20 Sep 2006|10:08am] |
I'm in shock and I miss you so much, I just want to know why? I Love you Patrick and you will be missed forever.
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[12 Sep 2006|08:48am] |
Summer was good. I went on Vacation Twice, New york city and New jersey, both with Michael it was amazing!
I've spent all my time with mike he is an amazing boy. Its been 8 months I cannot believe that.
School has started. I found out today that my Portfolio is due at Fit december 15 is the deadline and I cant mail it I have to present it. I have to have like 15-20 pieces of artwork I'm scared!
Mike and I have been going out for 7 months now. I am so excited. we're getting married and moving in together in June.
Later.
<3 ash
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[07 Jun 2006|12:45am] |
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Okay so saturday night was a big night
Got Pulled over by the cops and michael got frisked yeah FelT UP! hahahaha mike and i thought it was mad funny.
I got home at like 1 am and got completely bitched at for being an hour over cerfew. thats right bitches I have a cerfew now. BITES ASS!
Basically me and mike have been fighting more then expected. Its gunna be 5 months this month wow.
Our Road Trip to my dads house on Long Island is gunna be mad chill we are gunna go to the beach, WARPED TOUR, NYC, and sleep in alley ways. that sounds like an amazing idea and plan that will happen in august anyone wanna come let me know cause I will be glad to have you come along on my trip!!!
<33333 ashh
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[31 May 2006|12:03am] |
Everything is so Weird. Ever since my Grandpa died things have been so complicated and it feels like I have so many obligations like takening care of my grandmother and aunt. its so hard taking care of your family when your still in high school and you want to move out once you turn 18 but it might not happen and I want to go to college so bad but we will have to see whats going to happen.
<3 ash
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[22 May 2006|01:22am] |
Prom was mad fun.. I love michael he's my lover.. I love my friends too. Sam looked mad cute, so did bridget and amanda and kristy and everyone I didnt mention looked mad hott!!!
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[11 May 2006|01:09am] |
My grandpa passed away on sunday morning in the OR. I mad as anything right now. I'm sad also. They butchered him and he was so young only 60. I just can't believe it. I had the best relationship with him he was more then just my grandpa he was my father, my bestfriend, my comfort blanket. I lived with him all mylife, this is going to be sooo hard my grandmother is a wreck and i'm helping her so much its just that it really wasnt his time he was basically murdered. Those doctors didnt know what they were doing he didnt need those 4 operations he only needed one and that doctor never came around after that first mistake and I'm just soooo mad and upset its unbareable.
ash
ps. You will be missed forever. I love you grandpa.
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[02 May 2006|12:06am] |
My Grandfather is in critical condition. My grandmother is a complete mess and everything is going down hill for the family. but its brought our family closer together. My family is completely nuts. My family doesnt take shit from anyone. and thats what I like about them.
<3 ash
ps. I LOVE MIKE! this summer we will be forever on the road.
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[24 Apr 2006|11:59pm] |
Mikes starting his job today at this guitar shop down the road from his house. I'm really happy for him. He's starting to change his life around and I am so proud of him.
My grandfathers in the hospital in the icu and I'm scared. He's not doing good at all he's on a resperator and the doctors screwed up on the surgery, they ripped a part of he's splin open and they didnt realize it and they did the rest of the surgery because he has an anurysm in his aorta. So they stiched him all up and he had internal bleeding so they had to go back in and take out his splin. Its so fucked up, Doctors don't even know what the fuck they are doing anymore. seriously sitting in the hospital for the past week is so tiring seriously all I wanna do now is sleep.
I miss mike sooooo mucch. I can't wait to see him again, he's my life.
<3333 ash
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